I feel like a stupid person today.
I told the guy I like that I like him. And I asked him what he thought about it..
He responded with "I'm not really sure at the moment..."
I realize that isn't a no, but it definitely is not a yes.
I keep hearing from God not to give up on this one. Not to give up hope. That there is a purpose and a reason for liking this guy.
But, like I don't want to like him because it is sooo hard.
Liking someone is hard, a relationship is hard. And it's harder yet because he doesn't know what he wants.
A part of me wants to not go to school tomorrow. To just stay in the house doing nothing. But if I do that, I won't want to stay in my piano class. I will want to drop out.
And if I drop out, i will feel like an idiot some more.
I hate how liking one person is completely affecting my entire being.
I feel like I should just stop liking him, I don't know what to do.
And honestly I blame it all on him.....or me...i haven't decided...
ohh.....Maybe I should just blame it on the enemy and laugh.
Anyways, that is the update on me...
My brain is a confused cupcake....
with tons of mush and pain at every turn.
I need revelation and discernment.
Pray for me
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